Anxiety

I have been terrified lately by the things that have been continuously happening but I am the kind of person who does not want to make a fuss about things she cannot control. I just simply let go of things — people and desires.

If I feel anxious right now, I know that a lot of people already do because my tolerance is high and it is not easy to be productive at home. Having ample time is not enough to calm down. It is not easy to pause especially if you have put too much efforts on things that you thought you will be able to achieve. I hate politics and I am kinda apolitical because I thought it is a topic only for the smart-ass people who are educated to be fooled but I guess even the decisions of our leaders signify anxiety. That maybe they do not anymore know what to say or do about the situation.

I have never been greedy. I always care less. I always do not worry. But I am now, a bit greedy, careful and worried.

I just had a realization that 5 months of 2020 was gone. I hope I just made some progress. No matter how small, progress is still progress anyway.

I hope this pandemic ends soon. I just want peace of mind.